Holidays

I had two weeks holiday before my new semester re-open which is also the final semester for me. But within this two weeks holidays i didn't go anywhere, did nothing at all because i also don't know what to do. from the first day of holiday until also facing computer until late at night. Got a TV in the living room also didn't see whether nice movie to see, or nice programme to watch. I had already wasted my time for a week, what can i do for one more week? If i sitting down in the house for another week, is like locking myself in a cage, can't fly out especially at night. I seriously don't know what can i do.

Another thing is, next semester is my final semester, i don't know whether i'm scared to look forward or what because final semester is like facing biggest fear of all. I don't know whether i still can maintain the usually result or will drop, hopefully i can try my very best to finish this course of mine.

After finish this course, where will i work? Working with Astro? partner with my brother's friend? or going back to Pixel Post, my training place? or going to overseas to work? this is another hard time for me to think. A lot of people encourage me to go overseas to work IF i got the chance, but i'm still doubt of it because overseas exceptation is very high, must be very creative and all. But for me? i'm not good in creativity because my idea doesn't come often, my skill is not that good yet although my badge are the senior-est among the whole multimedia department. how good is my skill? how creative is my creativity? i still don't know until now and i'm already in final semester. What my badge did is way better than me, because of their concept, their design, their animation, their creativity is way ahead of me. How on earth can i compare with them? Can i still cope?

The more i'll think, the more upset i'll get, but it doesn't show on my face, on my expression.