hard

is very hard to see your love from a normal person, can walk, talk, eat and laugh, then enters the small and tight coffin, with the coat on, cover with blanket, then sealed under a glass with another cloth on top; then later close the coffin, enter the car, travel to that temple and enter hot fire by one click of a button.

once we reach around three something in the afternoon on the day after my grandfather past away
my tears drop off bit by bit from the first day until the last day when my grandfather enters the fire. all of us are here, even the one from Beijing and UK also rush here. it was a very sad things to happen so fast.

these few days i didn't get enough sleep, slept at 6 something, 7 something, 8 something in the morning. need to do prayers and all. everyday got 3 to 4 session of praying, each session at least half and hour, and within that half and hour, we are standing, walking around and on our knee on the TAR road.


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