I'm feeling very down this feel days and i don't know why. But how could this happen to me? Now i'm a bit sober because just only drank one full cup of Absolute Vocka on the rock. suddenly feel like want to cry but i can't and i don't know why...
Friday, December 14, 2007
Monday, October 29, 2007
Working Life In Astro
Although no need to work overnight in this company but still need to work late or goes to work very early in the morning. Because there are still rush jobs to meet deadlines. I know is been a long time that i didn't write any blog in here because of work.
But still, i have fun and joy in this company, lucky to know lots of colleagues, yet can see stars too just like last week.
i saw three Hong Kong Artist in Astro right in front of my eyes, standing in front of me. but because we have to act professional, i didn't not take their photos. At least i have the chance to meet them. (^.^)
Jobs are getting more and more during year ends as you know, Raya just past, Depavali is on the way and Christmas too. Not only that, for the past week months we are rushing out 7 new channels as you all know and repackage whole Astro package. But that was the plan and is going smoothly, suddenly, this Angkasawan came in and bang one another. 7 new channels and Repackaging is already been rush, but as Angkasawan came in, we cannot say no because is sponsor by the government, so we purposely create a 24 hours live channel (so call) because of this one person. Things in Astro is getting more rush because of promoting this channel and this guy. More hectic, more stress, more tension, more tired too...
Anyway, i got nothing more to write because i don't want to write, so my keyboard will stop here.
Getting sleepy now, under medication.
But still, i have fun and joy in this company, lucky to know lots of colleagues, yet can see stars too just like last week.
i saw three Hong Kong Artist in Astro right in front of my eyes, standing in front of me. but because we have to act professional, i didn't not take their photos. At least i have the chance to meet them. (^.^)
Jobs are getting more and more during year ends as you know, Raya just past, Depavali is on the way and Christmas too. Not only that, for the past week months we are rushing out 7 new channels as you all know and repackage whole Astro package. But that was the plan and is going smoothly, suddenly, this Angkasawan came in and bang one another. 7 new channels and Repackaging is already been rush, but as Angkasawan came in, we cannot say no because is sponsor by the government, so we purposely create a 24 hours live channel (so call) because of this one person. Things in Astro is getting more rush because of promoting this channel and this guy. More hectic, more stress, more tension, more tired too...
Anyway, i got nothing more to write because i don't want to write, so my keyboard will stop here.
Getting sleepy now, under medication.
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Working life recently
Working life currently is getting more pack and pack, have to work day and night. But, sometimes there's nothing to do during the day but tons of work to rush during the night. As you all know, i had been taking a full time job during the day and freelance job during the night if there's some. for the pass few weeks, i had been sleeping late at night and wake up early to work as in like i slept at 3 something, woke up at 8 something or i slept at 4 something, woke up at 8 something and i also tried sleeping at 5 something and also woke up
at 8 something in the morning to work.
That why during working hours, i had been drinking at least two to three cups of nescafe in a day. And as you all know, i do smoke, and i had been a quite controlled heavy smoker or chain smoker for the past few weeks. because of these day and night jobs.
But sometimes, during office hours, i got nothing to do but still i cannot rest or sleep in the office as you all know office mar, some more Astro, so freaking big company with all the creative directors around, all supervisor around, CEO, CFO, COOO, ...etc. So for the pass few weeks i was working like a ghost or floating around like a ghost. I don't know whether you all understand my descripion or not because until now, i'm still doing work at 2.21 in the morning, which have to preview to client tomorrow.
You all would be wondering, why am I want to take a freelance job to do, i know is not heatlhy, i know Astro giving a good pay, but so we all started working, a single payment sometimes is not enough, As we go on, we have more and more burden on our shoulders which related with money.
For example, my case, i got my own car which my father bought it for me and is also a third hand or fourth hand car, money for servicing, for fuel, topup credit for phone, food, money for parents, to buy stuff, to buy your own clothes, touch and go, so on and so forth. I also need to cover my car insurance and also my car road tax. The amount of money i had been used up a month, is too much, i can't really have my saving growing and my aim is to change a better car which can drive for like 5 to 10 years by end of this year or early of next year.
I'm actually quite tired and needed a day off or two or go for vacation to rest but i can't because schedule for work is getting pack and pack. I don't know whether my supervisor come beside me and said to me that " "i need to to do this but i want it as soon as possible, if possible by today" this is the worst case that my supervisor will said to me and i'm a graphic designer and have to start everything from the beginning.
anyway, i have to continue my un-finish work, so i had to stop here.
at 8 something in the morning to work.
That why during working hours, i had been drinking at least two to three cups of nescafe in a day. And as you all know, i do smoke, and i had been a quite controlled heavy smoker or chain smoker for the past few weeks. because of these day and night jobs.
But sometimes, during office hours, i got nothing to do but still i cannot rest or sleep in the office as you all know office mar, some more Astro, so freaking big company with all the creative directors around, all supervisor around, CEO, CFO, COOO, ...etc. So for the pass few weeks i was working like a ghost or floating around like a ghost. I don't know whether you all understand my descripion or not because until now, i'm still doing work at 2.21 in the morning, which have to preview to client tomorrow.
You all would be wondering, why am I want to take a freelance job to do, i know is not heatlhy, i know Astro giving a good pay, but so we all started working, a single payment sometimes is not enough, As we go on, we have more and more burden on our shoulders which related with money.
For example, my case, i got my own car which my father bought it for me and is also a third hand or fourth hand car, money for servicing, for fuel, topup credit for phone, food, money for parents, to buy stuff, to buy your own clothes, touch and go, so on and so forth. I also need to cover my car insurance and also my car road tax. The amount of money i had been used up a month, is too much, i can't really have my saving growing and my aim is to change a better car which can drive for like 5 to 10 years by end of this year or early of next year.
I'm actually quite tired and needed a day off or two or go for vacation to rest but i can't because schedule for work is getting pack and pack. I don't know whether my supervisor come beside me and said to me that " "i need to to do this but i want it as soon as possible, if possible by today" this is the worst case that my supervisor will said to me and i'm a graphic designer and have to start everything from the beginning.
anyway, i have to continue my un-finish work, so i had to stop here.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
My life currently...
Is been a very very long time i didn't type anything in this blog. Very sorry because i got no time to blog for past few months, not even got time to go for windows shopping for past two months..
Anyway, this is how my life currently goes...
i had stop working in Pixel Post post production company two months ago because was too hyper active, too fun to work with although Pixel Post's boss was very friendly, i prefer to change job because of loooooong hours working and leeeess hour sleeping. Further more, fortunately i don't have a girlfriend yet, if not i'll will be single when i enter that company. For your infomation, I had change from that company to Astro.
Working in Astro is much much more easier life and the best thing is, no need to work overnight. i tried the latest i tried was until 10 something or 11 something at night. Life was much much more easier. And i was the youngest stuff in that floor i'm currently working on. Working in Astro was fun, for example, my whole department help me to celebrate my 21 birthday in Astro's meeting room. is a cool thing. They bought chocolate brownish for me, not a small one which cost RM 5 something but the whole cake which cost... i don't know how much was it. Anyway, it was a surprise. The next time right after finishing the cakes, i have to rush things out before i went back home.
Ooya, once a week, we have a meeting about progression work, what's new things that we need to do, and during the meeting, we had a nice meal which Creative Director paid for. Sometimes we had sandwich, sometimes we had chicken chop, even sometimes we had lamp chop too. we seriously have a very nice Creative Director. And, our Creative Director is Canadian, he is a funny guy but serious on work.
The employee and employer are friendly Astro, i met quite a lot of people in Astro, even from different department. I saw Rudy, JJ, Ian, Jakeman, Adam, Serena C, Jason Lo from Hitz FM. i met Rudy and JJ and they were quite funny as they were in radio station. i saw Malaysian artist too as they walk by me like Aznil from the host Akademi Fantasia, Ah Pek from Cicak Man, One Buck Short which is a Malaysian band, Daniel Lee, Malaysian Idol, Pop Shuvit which is the Malaysian Linkin Park, and lots more. And i did saw a single from Hong Kong, Jacky Chueng, coming in Astro main entrance.
Anyway, I work with a lot of producer which they are funny and helpful. Some of them knows that i'm single, then call me to go after this girl lar, that girl lar, ask me working so long in Astro still got no target yet?
Haa haa haa, what i can do if i like one of them? i think for them, age does matter gua.. who knows? only they knows i don't know. Although tons of people said that age is not a problem, weight is not a presurre, height is not a distance, but still i don't know what are they thinking. (^.^)
Anyway, I think that's all about today, and is getting very late. i have to sleep as tomorrow have to wake up and work. -.-"
Anyway, this is how my life currently goes...
i had stop working in Pixel Post post production company two months ago because was too hyper active, too fun to work with although Pixel Post's boss was very friendly, i prefer to change job because of loooooong hours working and leeeess hour sleeping. Further more, fortunately i don't have a girlfriend yet, if not i'll will be single when i enter that company. For your infomation, I had change from that company to Astro.
Working in Astro is much much more easier life and the best thing is, no need to work overnight. i tried the latest i tried was until 10 something or 11 something at night. Life was much much more easier. And i was the youngest stuff in that floor i'm currently working on. Working in Astro was fun, for example, my whole department help me to celebrate my 21 birthday in Astro's meeting room. is a cool thing. They bought chocolate brownish for me, not a small one which cost RM 5 something but the whole cake which cost... i don't know how much was it. Anyway, it was a surprise. The next time right after finishing the cakes, i have to rush things out before i went back home.
Ooya, once a week, we have a meeting about progression work, what's new things that we need to do, and during the meeting, we had a nice meal which Creative Director paid for. Sometimes we had sandwich, sometimes we had chicken chop, even sometimes we had lamp chop too. we seriously have a very nice Creative Director. And, our Creative Director is Canadian, he is a funny guy but serious on work.
The employee and employer are friendly Astro, i met quite a lot of people in Astro, even from different department. I saw Rudy, JJ, Ian, Jakeman, Adam, Serena C, Jason Lo from Hitz FM. i met Rudy and JJ and they were quite funny as they were in radio station. i saw Malaysian artist too as they walk by me like Aznil from the host Akademi Fantasia, Ah Pek from Cicak Man, One Buck Short which is a Malaysian band, Daniel Lee, Malaysian Idol, Pop Shuvit which is the Malaysian Linkin Park, and lots more. And i did saw a single from Hong Kong, Jacky Chueng, coming in Astro main entrance.
Anyway, I work with a lot of producer which they are funny and helpful. Some of them knows that i'm single, then call me to go after this girl lar, that girl lar, ask me working so long in Astro still got no target yet?
Haa haa haa, what i can do if i like one of them? i think for them, age does matter gua.. who knows? only they knows i don't know. Although tons of people said that age is not a problem, weight is not a presurre, height is not a distance, but still i don't know what are they thinking. (^.^)
Anyway, I think that's all about today, and is getting very late. i have to sleep as tomorrow have to wake up and work. -.-"
Friday, February 23, 2007
Dream About You
I dream about you few months ago as we are dancing together, as we are walking together. But I don't really know whether is that you? I can't see the real face of who i'm with but it was a nice dream.
Last night i dream about you and we are still together, as we are closer to each other. And this time i know is you. In the dream, i look into her crystal eyes, feel your warmly touch, as she lay her head comfortably on my shoudler.
When is this going to happen? Why is this always happen to me where there's already can be real in dreams but not real in the real world? The dream that i dreamt is almost real. I can feel your touch and I can feel your warm but why I can't feel your touch nor your warm in the real world?
Why is it hard to fall in love with the person you truly love? Why there's a gap between us? I just need a sign. Just one sign is all i need.
I had missed my chance that day when we were dancing together. I should have act fast. I did ask my friends for advise and they said that i'm very stupid and slow reaction, why shouldn't i react fast on that time, now don't know whether she's still been tackled or not.
I had missed my chance and i'm very very regretted until now.
WHY AM I SO STUPID AND SO SLOW REACTION?????
Last night i dream about you and we are still together, as we are closer to each other. And this time i know is you. In the dream, i look into her crystal eyes, feel your warmly touch, as she lay her head comfortably on my shoudler.
When is this going to happen? Why is this always happen to me where there's already can be real in dreams but not real in the real world? The dream that i dreamt is almost real. I can feel your touch and I can feel your warm but why I can't feel your touch nor your warm in the real world?
Why is it hard to fall in love with the person you truly love? Why there's a gap between us? I just need a sign. Just one sign is all i need.
I had missed my chance that day when we were dancing together. I should have act fast. I did ask my friends for advise and they said that i'm very stupid and slow reaction, why shouldn't i react fast on that time, now don't know whether she's still been tackled or not.
I had missed my chance and i'm very very regretted until now.
WHY AM I SO STUPID AND SO SLOW REACTION?????
Friday, February 02, 2007
I had already broke my own record..
Is a hell of a job where i'm working now. Last time was 72 hours, three days three nights. Recently slowly becoming four days four nights. And now, which i'm currently still in office, which already five days and four nights already since from Tuesday until now, which is Saturday. How am i going to survivie? wearing the same clothing and especially same underwear for five days and four nights and without brushing teeth and all. I don't know whether I still can survive in this working life style or not. If i can survive this kind of job, i also don't know whether my small little brother will or not.. -.- now i'm getting more and more blur and talking crap. I think i better stop typing blog for now because too stressful, too tiring.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
72 HOURS
I had been not 24, not 48 but 72 hours non-stop working, three days in a row, this week and last week. Is been a very hectic work for me. Further more, working non-stop for 72 hours for this week and last week because o working on the same project. I'm already tired yet stressful and blur, very blur i don't know how long i can stay in this office.
My colleagues went back for a bath then come back to continue our work. I wish to go back home and bath but my house is much further than them. i need at least half and hour journey from office going back to house, haven't count going back to office.
I really wish i can get a very very good rest after this project rushing finish. Really wish to get this project done as fast as possible, as soon as possible. The more i stay in office working non-stop, the more slim i'll become and i don't know whether this is a good sign or not. Get pay and get slim OR Get pay and get more work.
I seriously got no freedom at all these days, always stay in office. No time to accompany my mother at home, no time to go out with friends shopping, have drinks or clubbing or any outing. If i got a girlfriend before i started working, my girlfriend surely will be breaking up with me because of time and work. BUT, is also a hard time for me to find a girlfriend now because again, time and work. The amount of work had used up all my personal time, even the time to sleep too. That's why i'm still awake at this time, 3.51am, 19 Jan 2007.
What people said, build up your carrier then only find girlfriend, carrier come first then only girlfriend comes second. I'm thinking, why can't i put carrier and girlfriend at the first place? Why can't people do multi-tasking? can focus two at one time or even more. Some people said are true, we can do multi-tasking but will be distracted very easily because we are not too focus on one particular thing, problem or object.
But, when we do every task, are we focus on it? most probably No, because will be distracted. For example: a group of boys playing basketball in a garden on a court, suddenly a group of girls walk passed slowly beside the court while solving their problem. What are the boys reaction?
boy A : " Piss, chun chick coming at your 8 o'clock "
boy B : " Which one? "
boy A : " That one ... "
As they were peeking, thier opponent only enter one point because they were not focus on the game.
Or
girl C : " Wow, that boy is cute "
girl D : " Which one? "
girl C : " That one near the board "
girl E : " Hey, we are not taking cute boys playing basketball for exam, please focus on our problem here.
So, am i right?
That ain't the point, that are not important. The important thing is, i'm too tired, too stressful to work now. If i continue working like this condition, i'll be very easy to get distracted.
My colleagues went back for a bath then come back to continue our work. I wish to go back home and bath but my house is much further than them. i need at least half and hour journey from office going back to house, haven't count going back to office.
I really wish i can get a very very good rest after this project rushing finish. Really wish to get this project done as fast as possible, as soon as possible. The more i stay in office working non-stop, the more slim i'll become and i don't know whether this is a good sign or not. Get pay and get slim OR Get pay and get more work.
I seriously got no freedom at all these days, always stay in office. No time to accompany my mother at home, no time to go out with friends shopping, have drinks or clubbing or any outing. If i got a girlfriend before i started working, my girlfriend surely will be breaking up with me because of time and work. BUT, is also a hard time for me to find a girlfriend now because again, time and work. The amount of work had used up all my personal time, even the time to sleep too. That's why i'm still awake at this time, 3.51am, 19 Jan 2007.
What people said, build up your carrier then only find girlfriend, carrier come first then only girlfriend comes second. I'm thinking, why can't i put carrier and girlfriend at the first place? Why can't people do multi-tasking? can focus two at one time or even more. Some people said are true, we can do multi-tasking but will be distracted very easily because we are not too focus on one particular thing, problem or object.
But, when we do every task, are we focus on it? most probably No, because will be distracted. For example: a group of boys playing basketball in a garden on a court, suddenly a group of girls walk passed slowly beside the court while solving their problem. What are the boys reaction?
boy A : " Piss, chun chick coming at your 8 o'clock "
boy B : " Which one? "
boy A : " That one ... "
As they were peeking, thier opponent only enter one point because they were not focus on the game.
Or
girl C : " Wow, that boy is cute "
girl D : " Which one? "
girl C : " That one near the board "
girl E : " Hey, we are not taking cute boys playing basketball for exam, please focus on our problem here.
So, am i right?
That ain't the point, that are not important. The important thing is, i'm too tired, too stressful to work now. If i continue working like this condition, i'll be very easy to get distracted.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Working Life
After graduation, i went back to the company where i were internship in. Working life is hard, working more than 12 hours a day, some of the days have to overnight because of all those rushing work. For a designer like me in the company started at 10 and finish don't know time.
Last week i had work more then 100hours in the office from sunday until sunday midnight. overnight in office for maximum two nights non-stop for two times, it was very tiring indeed. There are stressful yet tiring time and there are also joyful and relaxing time in the office too. Such as,drink beer in the office, playing PS2 in the office while relaxing. Boss also join in to drink and play too. That's was enjoying, but i had been facing around 20 hours a day in front of the computer. Isn't it stressful.
Further more i have to think about the animation, the design, all creative part and have to change all those for client's needs. Some clients are easy to please, but some of the client are very very hectic. I just met one of the client which gave us the first piece for us to do, then revised and revised again until is final then they said they want the second piece. All the hard work that we done went down the drain just like that and have to start all over again. That kind of feeling making me very pissed. Because we had been overnight in the office just to finish the work that they gave then revised and revised and end up they want the second piece instand of the first one.
We are not machines, IF we are machines, we have to shutdown or restart because machines can be hot and also slow down when working long hours. Maybe Power machine won't but we are not power machines. And we are not even machines. They think that the video were in library, is already in presents, just drag out and is final art. Clients are too smart to be smart.
Like last Sunday, working from Saturday until Sunday then going for my friend's birthday dinner then went back to office to continue finishing work. My office is in Bandar Damansara Perdana, and my friend's birthday dinner was in Sri Petaling. You all will be wondering about, why i must attend my friend's birthday dinner yet is so far from Damansara? Because is a 21st Birthday, i won't missed it although how far is it, is better to be late than not attend at all. Or another reason is, i don't know the way so i can't come.
Anyway, Happy Belated Birthday, Wen Ching, Camilia, Christopher, Yi-hua and Pui Leng which falls on 9, 14 and 15 January. May your wishes come true.
Back to topic, this is how my working life goes. So, if anyone want to call me out for movies or anything, please infrom me earlier so i can arrange my time.
And another thing, where is hell is my graduation night? they said this year will fall in April. Hopefully is not falling on my birthday. Once started working life like mine, you'll miss your all your friends, even though most you were not close to.
Last week i had work more then 100hours in the office from sunday until sunday midnight. overnight in office for maximum two nights non-stop for two times, it was very tiring indeed. There are stressful yet tiring time and there are also joyful and relaxing time in the office too. Such as,drink beer in the office, playing PS2 in the office while relaxing. Boss also join in to drink and play too. That's was enjoying, but i had been facing around 20 hours a day in front of the computer. Isn't it stressful.
Further more i have to think about the animation, the design, all creative part and have to change all those for client's needs. Some clients are easy to please, but some of the client are very very hectic. I just met one of the client which gave us the first piece for us to do, then revised and revised again until is final then they said they want the second piece. All the hard work that we done went down the drain just like that and have to start all over again. That kind of feeling making me very pissed. Because we had been overnight in the office just to finish the work that they gave then revised and revised and end up they want the second piece instand of the first one.
We are not machines, IF we are machines, we have to shutdown or restart because machines can be hot and also slow down when working long hours. Maybe Power machine won't but we are not power machines. And we are not even machines. They think that the video were in library, is already in presents, just drag out and is final art. Clients are too smart to be smart.
Like last Sunday, working from Saturday until Sunday then going for my friend's birthday dinner then went back to office to continue finishing work. My office is in Bandar Damansara Perdana, and my friend's birthday dinner was in Sri Petaling. You all will be wondering about, why i must attend my friend's birthday dinner yet is so far from Damansara? Because is a 21st Birthday, i won't missed it although how far is it, is better to be late than not attend at all. Or another reason is, i don't know the way so i can't come.
Anyway, Happy Belated Birthday, Wen Ching, Camilia, Christopher, Yi-hua and Pui Leng which falls on 9, 14 and 15 January. May your wishes come true.
Back to topic, this is how my working life goes. So, if anyone want to call me out for movies or anything, please infrom me earlier so i can arrange my time.
And another thing, where is hell is my graduation night? they said this year will fall in April. Hopefully is not falling on my birthday. Once started working life like mine, you'll miss your all your friends, even though most you were not close to.
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